To the point, I have come to realize that God never stops handing out his love. He will never be able to give you enough of his endless love, even when you've run scarce, fled from His word & his will and lived for yourself.. Sometimes you really can only learn the hard way.
In more ways than I can count, I regret a lot of things I've done as a person, as a teenager and as a christian. I often feel as though I have failed God, like he will never stop being disappointed in me and won't want to bless me because I truly don't deserve it from all the mistakes I've made.
Thing is, God loves you endlessly and unconditionally, and in a way that He can and will not ever stop pouring His blessings out to you.
Before this past month, I never would've realized that through the experiences that cause you to let go of people who aren't meant to be in your life, God takes ultimate control and holds your hand and protects your heart & His never ending healing process is forever within you. Having your regrets and mistakes made into reasons for Him to want to bless you, reasons for you to believe in Him more, reasons to call out to Him more & to see that you are so much better off in Gods name and word than staying in a situation where you feel like you can't even hear Him anymore.
Grace is never handed to you on a silver platter with a side of scrumptious purple grapes... but the freedom in finding grace and knowing you belong to Christ through having people you once loved removed from your life is one of the most eye opening experience you can encounter.
You don't have to keep yourself in bad company to realize you'd be better off without them. God wants you to lean onto Him, for guidance and help. Even when your cry out is a whisper & a shout into the void, it's heard & He knows your heart & what YOU deserve. He will provide.
A time in my life, where I feel like my cry was mediocre, and quiet... it was heart felt and loud to God.
Your heart never stops feeling what your mind tells it not to, and God knows both better than you know it.
Finding peace in error and forgiveness in regrets is like letting 10,000 bricks fall off your shoulders and taking a step back from them to look at what you've been made of, and what has made you who you are.
It's never going to be immediately that you notice a new change happening in your life, but God has this amazing plan for you, for you to realize that He is enough, He loves you & He forgives you. He sets you free from mistakes and loves you with a steadfast love.
What is yet to create you is still ahead & there are errors ahead, and possibly regrets.. but never stop believing God knows your heart & will forever be by your side through it all, even when you don't know He is.
1 John 1:9
"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness."
Isaiah 1:18
"Come now, let us reason together," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.
1 Timothy 1:15-16
15 "Here is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance: Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners—of whom I am the worst.16 But for that very reason I was shown mercy so that in me, the worst of sinners, Christ Jesus might display his immense patience as an example for those who would believe in him and receive eternal life."
Thank you, love you guys! <3
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