Thursday, 13 November 2014

Another Year Gone By...

Each year on the night of my birthday when it's just about to end and I'm praying and thanking God for the beautiful people He's surrounded me with. I take a moment to look back on the last year I lived. I breathe in each memory, moment, smile, tear & begin to realize where God needs me to be.. and that's. right. here. 
In this moment, is exactly where He wants me. To be laying in my bed with my stuffed tiger Angus that I got from my brother & thanking God for the lessons learned, the mistakes, the people, the amazing times and the sad times. Because every single on made up this moment right now. 

Often times, we get so caught up in the year that by the end of it we never realize we were grateful for it all.
 It was hard as hell to live through some of the moments I did, but I had also never been happier in other's. 
It's crazy how one day you can be living it and the next you're rememising about it, and than you realize that memory was 8 years ago and not 10 days ago.. and you realize that you're growing up and you're not even sure you know how to. 
It's the most mind boggling thing to wrap my thoughts around and I know so many of you are with me. 

Jesus' love and forgiveness and healing gives me all the more will to live another year, and that's all I need. 
I don't need a party of a hundred, or posts on my Facebook wall. (although shoutout to the awesome people who did) Because as long I have Him holding me here, and the grace and mercies that come along with Him.. I'm me & I'm set. And that's it. 

I think back a year ago today at nearly midnight and I know I was thankful for the season God had put me through then. I realize seasons change, and the leaves fall and the sun rises and some memories fade away & people come and go. But if you're not grateful for the mistakes, be grateful for the lessons. The Lord put it there for a reason. You're here for a reason. 
Another year, a million more blessings. 


     thank you to anyone who's stuck along                      
    with me. we have many more journeys to     
      venture through. 18 is just the start.❤️


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