When we believe that what we have is enough, God seems to come through; showing us that we deserve even more than what we think is enough.
Months ago I was really stuck, feeling like I wanted a fresh start in my job. I was sick and tired of the same thing, the same people & feeling like I wasn't appreciated or needed. So as a Christian, I began to pray. Knowing God would satisfy my soul. I would never have to be afraid, because one thing remained. Him.
I would pray often enough to feel like God wasn't listening to my heart, so I stopped for a time period & would just think about it on and off & hope that God would hear my heart.
I had never felt so angered in where I was at in my job, and was becoming less willing to work hard, and would often slack (in my own personal opinion)
When my boss reached out to me asking me to switch stores because I was needed at another location, I didn't want to, but when I said yes, I didn't realize that today I would feel the way I do. Through me changing locations, God was curing the first ache in my heart that craved change, and a different job that I had tried to get for quite a while. That was His first step.
But the feeling of graciousness and thankfulness did not arrive until yesterday. (After all this happened)
I worked the make shift, and for me that was the most depressing time in my life, although it was short lived I knew that I needed out of there & was feeling more stuck and more depressed than I ever had, even more than when I was working at the other store.
I got off of the night shift by praying for Gods grace through asking to be taken off them, and put back to my store (of 3 years)
I was taken off the shift, but I wasn't transferred back and that upset me, but it wasn't a tragedy and I would live with it while I knew God was teaching me patience. (Psalm 37:7-9, Romans 12:12)
Three months went by, and I was still feeling this ache in my heart "to go home". I wasn't seeing God, because I wasn't willing to look for Him. While I was busy complaining, God was placing on my heart this feeling of rejoicing to Him. I began to show up to work everyday not working in unhappiness or anger at my manager or co-workers and my environment, I went to work for God, I worked for Him and praised Him through my work, at the job I wasn't happy at & didn't feel appreciated or heard. I worshiped Him because He loves me and I knew He was on my side, and not against me. (Romans 8:31)
Another month nearly went by, and I praised God with all that I had, and all that I was at my job. Meanwhile unknowingly growing my patience.
Two days ago, I was told it was time for me to go back to my original store location. I jumped up in my seat, and felt the ache in my heart leave immediately.
While we're busy being selfish, and not realizing that when we feel doors aren't being opened, Gods just laying out the path in order to satisfy your soul.
He is always, on your side. Worship Him, because He loves you, and not to get anything in return. He died for you, simply live for Him. And he will satisfy your soul.
xoxo
Victoria
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