Stranger Than Fiction

Often times I catch myself talking very intensely with God, like I'll be praying and just chatting with Him & then I break out into a puddle of tears & whether that's normal for other Christians or not, it's my normal. 

Anyways, I came to praying and talking to God about how I treat people & how others treat me. 

It began with me praying for people in general to start treating me as I deserve.. This sinful, fearful, shameful young girl deserves to be treated in a much better manor than she has. But why? 

The way I treat other people is the same way I'm being treated & that got me thinking.. if I began to give my 100% to everyone- whether you're a stranger on the street, a customer at work, a family member & particularly the people I live with, or someone I highly disliike.. If I create enemies in my heart & I'm not giving 100% of who God made me to be to other people, than what am I doing? 

If I began to give me 100%, I would get 100% back. Whether it's Gods plan to show you 100% from others in the first day, or He blesses you with it 50 days later. You don't know. Sorry. 

But it's Gods hope you show HIS love to others. And at this point in my life, I believe that if you give that, you'll get it in return no matter the time or day. You deserve to be loved regardless of who you are and what you've done & you will find what your heart is aching for. And that's coming from a girl who is still at the "hoping for the hope in the hard place" stage. 

Who am I to say I deserve to be treated better when I'm not sure I know how to treat people either? who are you to do the same? 

For me it was time to put down the fiction and come to realize life has a reality to it & we need to stop treating people like characters in a book, as if they'll just forgive us and move on that's not real life & as much as I wish it was.. it's not. 

This just really hit my heart tonight & I had to share it. Feeling so empty, and wondering why; leads you to a million different thoughts, but if you can branch it off and then find the root; you'll have a brand new life goal in no time & I want nothing more than to give what I'm receiving and vise-versa. 

I pray and have hope you'll do the same in your daily walk. 

Thanks so much for reading. Have an amazing rest of your day & God bless you!! <3 ❤️💜 

Addiction & Forgivness

I know that so many of us have addictions. They alter depending on each person. I know I'm addicted to cellular activity, I'm addicted to makeup, youtube, I'm addicted to thoughts & always wanting something to do but hardly finding time to fit it into my schedule. As of right now I'm addicted at looking at colleges & knowing exactly where I want to go.. 

Addictions in life like I said a moment ago, vary from person to person & they can be worse or smaller. 

Sin is all the same to God, as is addiction. Everyone is equal to God, we're all sinners no matter the depth in human eyes & opinions. So why hide what is right in front of you everyday? 

Addiction is so easy to pass over, yeah I go on my phone ALL.THE.TIME. 

And yes I think until I cry, and yes I watch YouTube videos until the website crashes.. But those "small" addictions are equally as sinful in Gods eyes as pornography, drugs, drinking, cutting. Or anything else the world would consider to be "worse then theirs".

But what are we addicted to in God that makes us go back so often? What do we find so attractive about God? What makes us cling to that hope He instills in us to follow Him? 

His forgiveness. 

We come back to Him because we know He listens although He isn't physically visual, we go back to Him because He will love us no matter what, when the addiction gets boring or no one loves you anymore.. You realize for even a split moment, Jesus' love is better than what the world offers. (John 16:33: 

"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”) 

In conclusion to what I'm trying to make as short as I can, Gods forgiveness and love should be our addictions & addiction is hard to overcome, and it starts with being accountable to your sins. 

I'm leaving a link to a book that I have that will help on your journey through addiction. please go check it out!

(Addiction & Grace By Gerald G. May)  http://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/0061122432?pc_redir=1411891584&robot_redir=1