Another Year Gone By...

Each year on the night of my birthday when it's just about to end and I'm praying and thanking God for the beautiful people He's surrounded me with. I take a moment to look back on the last year I lived. I breathe in each memory, moment, smile, tear & begin to realize where God needs me to be.. and that's. right. here. 

In this moment, is exactly where He wants me. To be laying in my bed with my stuffed tiger Angus that I got from my brother & thanking God for the lessons learned, the mistakes, the people, the amazing times and the sad times. Because every single on made up this moment right now. 

Often times, we get so caught up in the year that by the end of it we never realize we were grateful for it all.

 It was hard as hell to live through some of the moments I did, but I had also never been happier in other's. 

It's crazy how one day you can be living it and the next you're rememising about it, and than you realize that memory was 8 years ago and not 10 days ago.. and you realize that you're growing up and you're not even sure you know how to. 

It's the most mind boggling thing to wrap my thoughts around and I know so many of you are with me. 

Jesus' love and forgiveness and healing gives me all the more will to live another year, and that's all I need. 

I don't need a party of a hundred, or posts on my Facebook wall. (although shoutout to the awesome people who did) Because as long I have Him holding me here, and the grace and mercies that come along with Him.. I'm me & I'm set. And that's it. 

I think back a year ago today at nearly midnight and I know I was thankful for the season God had put me through then. I realize seasons change, and the leaves fall and the sun rises and some memories fade away & people come and go. But if you're not grateful for the mistakes, be grateful for the lessons. The Lord put it there for a reason. You're here for a reason. 

Another year, a million more blessings. 

     thank you to anyone who's stuck along                      

    with me. we have many more journeys to     

      venture through. 18 is just the start.❤️

His Better Plan

Growing up, I was never the controlling type. I let things role as they did, and allowed God to have full control of my life.

As you get older you realize you want that "power" in your own hands & you want to call the shots. But when I stop for a moment to think, and pray; I know... God has a bigger and better plan for me. And anything I do to create my own path, will fall through because I'm not the one who's in control, God is and that's what I want. 

Ever think to yourself, maybe I should stop for a breathe and let The Lord lead the way? Not often. And that's because we doubt we'll know where to go or what to do. When it feels right and you're doing what you love, or you feel like it's the best thing to do, that is most likely God leading your way. Though everyone experiences "signs" and direction differently. Because we each have a specific way of communicating with Jesus.

 "Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path." (Psalm 119:105)

No matter where I am, I know Gods word is with me, and I can speak to Him anytime I want. Not just at night before bed, or in the morning before my day starts. I want to do my best for Him daily, and strive to be the best daughter of God that I can be. Although I am sinful, I will not fall down without letting the Lord pick me back up where I fall. I will not lead my own path, because I do not know best. I will honour and obey my God because He loves me and forgives me. 

Never let your heart get tired of loving the Lord, and love Him with the burning passion He's ignited in you. 

(some other verses to check out on letting the Lord lead): 

Proverbs 3:5-6

Psalm 32:8 

Isaiah 58:11

                 THANK YOU, xoxo